Inside looking out!!!

It's funny all your life you go through thinking never will I be that person- the person who has it all yet is stuck looking out for something else. I have heard people say way too often that its hard to know from outside looking in but I stand here to tell you most of the times its the ones inside that are looking out; wondering how those people's lives may be? Don't they know that nothing is what it seems nothing but a mere world of mist. 

Looking out the window or just by staring inside a room of people one lies all alone through the banter and the smiles and all the talks that get silenced out I stand there instead getting lost in my head waiting to break a window and escape. How lovely it would be to escape into that outside plain of mere reality and no longer playing pretend. For once to stare inside and wonder how she is in person and not know that its but an empty shell of a lost soul...